what’s been heard,seen and felt by joan…

wat a day at first you thought that the ppol around you are true frnds you can really rely on but now i just found out that having them sux sorry not sux but im a bit confused ryt now anyway no regrets coz i learn a lot from them nd still thankful to hav them around.gulo ba?duh whatever the hell as if they care…lyf goes on and as time passess by you can see whose youre real frndz are i know im not that good but i have no idea why on earth they act like that as if ive done something.nah whatever happens ill just ignore them and have fun.they just cant ruin my day my lyf.atleast i learned a lot from them.they thought me not to trust to just anybody but it still hurts coz i treat them already as one of my true frnd but i still want to have them back .

on the other hand i still have my family my couzins around and my true frnds whose been with me all the time during my ups and downs.

its been a year since i graduated college and im turning 22 dis june but seems like nothings change….except for mah age i think…i met lot of ppol coming from diff. place wid diff personalities some of them last our frndships but some just stay for a while them suddenly their gone…on the other side i thank dem for coming into my life and for letting me realized and understand bout wat really life mean is.its about worthlivin they said that i must not be afraid in making mistakes and that i should enjoy what i have right now and to show and express i how feel coz maybe theres no chance of letting them know bout how i feel for them and how they mean to me.but i used to hide my feelings afraid of being rejected  or being dump so id rather keep mah mouth shut hidden my emotion..maybe thats me afraid of being fooled by others….

ders one BIG question that keepz on bugging on my crazy mind….

why the heck in this damn world ppol cant mind there own shit i mean y cant they mind there own damn life…its too unfair…we do have seperate lives to manage…i dont wanna be mean but guyz,frndz ppol please stop making up stories bout me, bout us, bout aderz coz youre ruining our lives nd ur spoiling our day.cant you just shut youre big mouth.

waaa…watta a wk……llots of adventures,gimiks,trippin….seems lyk everythings a dream and now im back to the real worl…..tsk.tsk.tsk….

how true that everything wont last………friends…love…career…. oh this whole damned thing is a shit.they just come and all of a sudden when youre up to them already when theyd already hook your attention theyre gonna left you confused i mean what the heck…is LIFE  just trippin me out or am i  been PUNK’d im not a hollywood actress you know so cut it out…..id rather locked mah self in my room and dont let others to pissed me off…..but for reality i just cant locked mah self dont wanna be nerd or a geek ewww…..ILL JUST ENJOY what i have right and just let things happened and believed that EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON…………

OMG what a day….id rather stay here in mah room listening to music watching tv or surfing the net than going out and bumping out to  people whose trying to piss off your day…i hate it but the good thing about going out is that  eventhough there are people who pissed off my day still mah frnds are their who makes me laugh we still managed to make it a memorable day.really we just have fun eventhough others are trying to ruin our day wahahah specially im with annie nd exe there so nice and they really makes my day…i mean who cares if they dump us no big deal i mean duh!!! its their lost not ours…right girls….i think i should take a rest first try to CHILL out and honestly i really miss mah bed i mean sleeping for 12-15 hours then eat and then sleep again….wow….so GTG

Every Time I See You I Remember
All the things you did for me when I
Was going through my adolescent hell.
Yet now I cannot speak unless I cry.
I know you are no longer free to see me;
You’ve made your choice, and that I must respect.
But I’ve a need to say that I still love you.
I have no fear or pride I need protect.

Just as the sun must come back every morning
To shine upon the meadow it holds dear,
So I will from afar shine on your glory,
And hope someday again you’ll let me near

nah seems like life’s not fair i think…did you already feel that your the only person left in this damned world..i dont think that everybody already feels that way.i dont know why some of us where not been born happy,complete,rich.pretty and good looking.why is it that there are people who are born to be insensetive,cruel,rude and mean.we cant just say that GOD did that for nothing.i mean i think everything thats been hapenning right now god maybe has a purpose but we do cant help to ask him WHY ME? and WHY NOW?

hehehe la lng

 i just cant believed that im already a big girl now havin lots of responsibilities.i already finished my schools and i know that this is just the beginning of my journey to life.. ryt???

since the result of the nursing board exam was extended me nd my frends realized that we should not just stay in our home doing nothing.

so we decided to find a job.and luckyly were already a trainee now in a callcenter here in ayala.i met new frnds during our training period but i was so sad because we were distributed to different account of the company so sad because we already build what we call  BONDING with our co-trainee’s.nah thats why i developed this seperation anxiety i think..so now i felt like i dont wanna make frnds again because time will come that youre gonna end up the friendship.huhuhuhu.so sad huh!!!!or im just making my life so complicated …..im going to miss you guyz…..hope that our roads might cross again coz i really appreciate all of you guyz..

well midterms over…FINALS na…. since its d last term wer all bc for our grand case presentation.and its so boring…our case will be about the cerebral aneurism.and i just recieved the news dat wer going to hav a make up class in San Lazaro Hosp.WHEwww communicable diseases huh!!!!!must be ready for it.